Hi Everyone,
My name is Rachael, and I’m scared.
Scared you won’t like me. Scared I’ll make a fool of myself. Scared I already have. Scared nothing will ever change.
So I don’t. Instead of doing, I don’t. I’m a don’t-er.
Consistently keeping company with the past, specifically the hurts, regrets, injustices, embarrassments and trauma.
For ten years I took pills that numbed the fear, shame, disgusted and anger I have with myself, my life and my world.